without you

that very moment 

I kept on thinking

how could I go on living

without you

trembling violently

as I pound your chest;

your rib cage rattles

& you break

You are a part of me,

the only extension of me;

my life and everything ends

without you.
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heavily inspired by pyperbleu's book + a nightmare I recently had about my sister dying.
I don't know why it happened but it did and here I am with this random poem LOL

in my dream I don't know why, but my sister stopped breathing and I tried to perform cpr
and tried everything to bring her back to life but when she was gone...I physically felt a part
of me die and break apart. so yeah idk weird dream, weird poem I'm weird

dead my old fine hopes

They're all dead, every one of them
and it's painful to begin dreaming
when they're shattered and crushed
completely, each time without fail.

All I've ever known is this
agonizing cycle of hoping then
never receiving, then abandoning
every dream to wither...but still.

I look ahead and see endless
fields of irises, blue each spring;
blooming and breathing on me
a familiar, lingering fragrance.
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-inspired by Shushiki's haiku (that I love so much)
// free form that obviously lacks form + skill but I randomly wanted to try it :P